December 2019: weighing 70kg (for 170cm), running 5km in ~21 minutes, exercising daily or most days with cardio and strength routines. Winning fitness challenges at workplace. Exercise invigorates me and actually helps me go through the days of a very challenging job.
January/February 2020: something happens in my mindset, just find it hard to exercise and I go to the gym twice a week or less, to do slow runs and a bit of strength training, weight starts to creep up (as I am used to burn a lot of calories every day I am also used to eat at that level).
March 2020: lockdown happens, no gyms, and I feel very conscious about running outside as my area is very busy with people without masks - very difficult to maintain social distancing (fyi I am in London). Bought a stationary bike but broke it a couple of weeks later.
May 2020: weighing 80kg, haven't run in two months, exercised likely once or twice in the last 20 days. I have a barbell, two dumbbells and the bike which I can't seem to be able to fix on my own. I feel depressed due to lack of exercise, dissatisfied at myself for having myself let go in the span of 5 months (it's actually pretty terrible when I think about it, been such an idiot..), I feel fat and avoid being on camera when I can during work Zoom calls, I just feel overall bad.. Still feel uncomfortable about running outside but I need to get over it...
Do you have any suggestions to get out of this black hole of no exercising and unhealthy living? It affects my mood but is self-reinforces as the more I feel bad about it, the less I feel able to do something about it. There are so many resources out there like classes on instagram or whatever, but I just never pick them up. What is going on with me?
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