Hello, so I’m a F(20) who is 5’3” and 168 pounds. I know this is grossly unhealthy. But I have more to say.
I’ve always been chubby except in 2017 when I got MAJOR anxiety and depression. I couldn’t eat during those times and got down to 127 from around the 140s range simply because I could barely stomach food.
In either the end of 2017 or the beginning of 2018, I started taking 60 mg of Paroxetine for panic + anxiety and depression. (Previously I had also used CBD and it helped somewhat but not to the degree I needed).
I’m still on 60mg of Paroxetine to this day, and my weight just keeps going up and up. As I wrote, I’m at 168/9 now, the heaviest I’ve ever been.
The Paroxetine did help me get my life back together but I still have major anxiety over being alone (It doesn’t matter where I am, I just can’t be alone without other people in sight (even just strangers), and I refuse to take elevators alone and am trying petrified to death of any type of event where a person needs to be alone alone. The medication truly helps with a lot of anxiety I used to have but obviously I still have issues.
I feel so lost. I’ve tried CICO, paleo, keto, Whole 30, taking daily walks, trying to fill my day with chores for bodily movement, but I keep getting bigger.
I will say I don’t have any confidantes in my life and food is probably my first comfort.
I especially feel like the there’s no hope especially being on antidepressants, is there? I’ve heard so many horror stories and horrendous reactions from people trying to come off their antidepressant medication.
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