I have had major issues with eating. I binge, night, and emotionally eat. It becomes horrific when I am under stress.
I moved to the UK from the US in December for 5 months to do a trial live in relationship before a full Visa application (I’m still here cause of this fucking corona virus) .. My boyfriend became very distant towards me and finally I just had it 3 days ago and asked if my weight gain was the issue..
Well, don’t ever ask that question if you are not ready to hear some hurtful shit. He basically told me he’s never been okay with my weight. I met him at 190, the second meeting I was at 205 and now I’m 230.. He said that he’s not comfortable with me being so big and well neither am I, but I had no idea he always felt this way..
I have a long history of gaining and losing 50 to 100 pounds then dieting down and now at 47 it’s been brutal to my body.. I don’t know how to control myself.. I’m so upset as he has basically pulled all plans for marriage.
I am just overwhelmed with guilt and misery. I know what I need to do but I just can’t seem to do it this time..I literally look like a Defensive Linebacker.. it’s not attractive in the least bit..
I hope to keep following this group to get support....
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