(For reference, I'm a 22 y/o female)
So 2 years ago I lost weight from 185lbs down to 150lbs pretty quickly through going vegetarian and doing IF. And because it happened so quickly, the reactions of everyone else was pretty jarring since I hadn't yet caught up with how different I looked in my own mind. People were much nicer to me, I was getting compliments constantly, and I met my first boyfriend during this time.
However, that relationship wasn't good-- I was still extremely insecure and self-conscious and was constantly wondering why someone like my ex would want to be with me, since I mentally still felt like I belonged in the background and didn't feel worthy of being in a relationship. We ended it quickly and I ended up dating someone else a while later, and that relationship wasn't good either lol (but for other reasons) and I ended up ballooning back up 180. We broke it off in March of this year, and since then I've dropped down to 159. I eventually will like to start dating again but I'm having a difficult time figuring out how to work on my self-esteem while losing the weight so I can try to be my best self.
I've realized that I get into relationships with other insecure men and that I don't feel worthy of a healthy, equal relationship. Obviously this isn't a mindset that I want in my life lol. I've been trying to work on my hobbies and whatnot during this quarantine and talking to my friends when they're not busy, but I have also moved to a new city for a new job after graduating college and idk, I don't have anyone here so I've been kind of stuck in my own head the past week that I've been living here.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/gnr6nu/how_to_view_myself_better_as_i_continue_dropping/
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