I guess this never clicked for me until right now after I've gotten done sobbing about how much of a shitty hand I've been dealt in life.
I know that we with Aspergers can develop fixations. We have our special interests in the weirdest things.
For me, I feel like one of those special interests is food. Ever since I was little, I'd love watching the Travel Channel's Man vs. Food, Top 10 Eats (or w/e it was called), and as I got older, that just transitioned into watching a lot of food vids on Youtube. I watch a lot of Binging With Babish, Gordon Ramsay, Buzzfeed's Worth It, etc.
See, now I don't cook much myself cause I'm just shit at it. I also have no freaking clue how to make any vegetables taste good. Seriously, if you have ideas, shoot them in the comments. I hate the taste of veggies, and I have no idea how to season the little shits or cook them.
Anyways, reflecting, an interest in food has always been part of my life even before the depression, the anxiety, the binge eating disorder.
But I'd always be thinking of food. To this day, I can't handle going hungry. I relish eating. It's the only enjoyable high for me. But I hate fruits and vegetables due to sensory issues. They make me physically ill. I hate exercise because when I sweat, I break out into hives it feels like. Nobody believes me when I tell them that though.
Dear lord, I'm so screwed.
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