I cannot figure out for the life of me how to link to my previous post on this subreddit (I am unfortunately on mobile at the moment), but it’s in my post history if anyone’s interested. I wanted to post an update and a thank you.
My heaviest was 87 kg, and I now weigh 69 kg on average. It’s hard to believe how much I’ve actually lost - 18 kg! When I last posted in r/loseit, I was just embarking upon an attempt to radically change my relationship with food and finally lose the excess weight that had been plaguing me since I was a small child. Now, I have been maintaining my weight for something like nine months, without even trying. It turns out that what it took was a truly fundamental shift in the way I thought about food - it used to control me. I couldn’t stop myself from eating, because I love taste. I’m not a huge fan of fast food franchises - I very much dislike McDonald’s, Taco Bell, etc - but takeaways like kebabs and especially chips were my weak point, as well as quality foods such as good cheese, in excessive quantities. All it took was for me to resist once, and resist properly. That hadn’t happened for years. I had never felt in control, like I was making the choices, but like I had to eat more even as I hated myself for it. As soon as I resisted once, stopped myself from buying a tonne of food from the off-licence, or declined a cake I didn’t need, the next time became a little bit easier, and then the next time even simpler. The sense of power was addictive, as soon as I had a taste of it - suddenly I wasn’t controlled by food. I was independent. I know I’m lucky, I know it isn’t always that easy, but for me that was the difference between all my previous failed diet attempts and this one - I decided that I was the one in charge, for the first time in years.
I still eat the junk food I can’t help but love every so often - curly fries, crisps, etc. But I’m in control now. And I’d like to just say a sincere thank you to everyone here. I only made one post. Other than that, I’ve very much been a lurker. But your comments on that post were incredibly kind and encouraging. As my original post said, at that time I was part of an environment where many of my closest friends had serious issues with food. I couldn’t share my goals with anyone. So your comments meant so much. And seeing your stories, no matter how different the circumstances from mine, has meant more. We’re all ultimately trying to improve ourselves, to be the best we can be, and it means something to know I’m not alone in that fight. Since my last post, I’ve started my first year at Cambridge, and I think the friends I’ve made here care much more for my well-being than my old friends did. I’m so much happier than I was. This past summer, I wore a bikini for the first time in my life, with confidence! I may not be toned yet, but god damn, I’m average, and average feels wonderful!
Anyway, I’d like to say - I wish a hearty good luck to everyone here. I’ll continue lurking, because this is one of the kindest and most determined corners of the Internet. Knowing that there are such amazing and resilient people out there has always inspired me, without fail. I think this mis-remembered and paraphrased saying stuck with me more than anything, and I hope it’ll help someone else: ‘No texture or flavour is worth your life.’ My life is worth sharing with the people I love more than anything, and I want to remember as I get older than nothing is worth losing the time on Earth I’m lucky enough to have.
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