I've been overweight whole life. Ever since I was little I can remember I've always had a struggle with food. I always remember being scared and sad growing up and eating always made me happy or at least distracted. I had self confidence issues and a lot of self hatred. Young me always thought that I'd be happy once I lost weight.
I'm a large man (28), 6'4, currently 300 lbs. I started losing weight a few years ago. At my heaviest, I was 420 lbs. I tried many different ways to lose weight, finally I figured out that OMAD intermittent fasting was the way that worked for me. I lost 120lbs over 2 years. I felt happy while I was losing weight. I hit a plateau about 2 years back and I've been stuck at 300lbs (+- 10lbs).
I know how to lose weight and kick it back into gear, but I've lost all motivation. I think I always had some level depression in my life, but these last 2 years have been soul crushing. Growing older I realized losing weight wouldn't make happy, but somewhere in the back of my mind I thought that maybe I had a chance. The opposite happened, after I lost the 120lbs a really deep depression set in and I've been in that for the last 2 years. People tell me that I look great, that I'm attractive, but I can't believe any of them. I look in the mirror and only see the body that I fucked up and how much I hate myself for it. I feel like I don't deserve to be loved for how I look. I'm not comfortable in my own skin. I can't see the positive of situations, I'm generally numb all the time, unless it's interrupted by frustration and anger mostly directed at myself. I started to see a therapist to try and get past these issues, but it has yet to help. I know it takes time.
I guess I just needed to get this out. I'd love to hear any similar experiences that any of you went through and how you deal with them.
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