I know I can stop, but I’ve been in the darkest place I’ve been in a while right now and gave into the feedback loop that made me fat in the first place.
I’m so disgusted I undid so much hard work. I have a huge fat stomach again and I was so close to finally feeling confident about my body. I’m just so fucking sad and angry all the time and the endorphin rush i get from eating is the only thing that anesthetizes it. It’s the only relief I get.
I want to try and get back on the wagon this month but it’ll mean letting go of my overeating crutch. How can I do that when I’m so dependednt again? For some reason it feels even harder now than ot did the first time!! I hate myself.
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