When I was 16 I got extremely sick and had to get my gallbladder removed. Since I’m an American we couldn’t afford an emergency room visit so I met with a surgeon and had to be on a special non fat non sugar diet for 3 months. In those 3 months I lost 60lbs (285) I ate nothing but rice, chicken, and vegetables cooked in bone broth. After my surgery I got back into my old habits and gained 25 lbs (310). After I gained my weight back I decided to eat better and I did. I didn’t eat junk, I didn’t drink soda or eat sugar. I. But recently I have been depressed and have been eating like crap; pizza, soda, cake, candy, you name it. And since I started eating like crap I have gotten to my lowest weight. Of course I feel like crap, my face is breaking out, and my immune system took a hit (currently sick as all hell). But I’m still at my lowest weight since I started high school. Now the reason I say I don’t look like I weight 275lbs is because I don’t. My boobs are a little smaller and my face no longer looks like a microwaved bag of marshmallows. But my stomach is just as big as it was, it just hangs lower. And every time I look in the mirror I have this weird feeling that I’m not actually looking at myself. I don’t know what I should feel with all of this, but honestly I don’t feel much, I’m not proud of myself, or happy with my current body, but I’m definitely still as empty as ever.
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