Big long rant ahead............ I found an old photo from 4 years ago of a side to side photo I did of my belly because, I was still overweight back then and wanted to lose weight. When I compared it to a photo of me today, I wanted to cry. My belly is almost twice the size it was, I believe it’s a 25lb difference after weighing myself and just knowing what I was back then... I know how to lose weight, I know what plan will work for me, it’s just the will power I have a hard time with. I suffer from BED and will eat a family sized meal and the some, in one sitting. Back in July I went to a Holistic Dr and got a blood test done, he told me I needed to cut out dairy and gluten completely because it was causing me inflammation and I would have better success losing weight without it. I also did 18:6 fasting and one 24hr fast a week. I did this successfully up until October, I had to stop going to see him because, I was paying almost $200 every visit and couldn’t afford it anymore and told myself I would just take his advice and do this alone... boy was I wrong. Not having someone to hold me accountable for what I was eating and keeping tabs on my weight, I went spiraling downward. I stated eating dairy and gluten again like crazy, BED came back worse than ever, depression struck me horribly, I was drinking almost everyday and then binging like CRAZY. I ended up gaining 20+lbs in 3 months... I am so tired of feeling like crap, I’m so tired of looking in the mirror and wanting to cry. I’ve been lying to my family and telling them I’m still doing my diet when I believe it’s so clear that I’m not... I decided I’m doing this. Now. I’m going on a awesome float trip in August this year and I want to be able to fit into a cute swimsuit and not feel like a whale. My goal is to lose as much weight as I can before then. I’m going to do 18:6 fasting, 1500 calorie limit. I am currently 6ft tall, F, 270lbs. I want to be 180lbs, that is my ultimate goal. I have NOT been under 200lbs since I was maybe 11 years old (yea crazy!!!) I’ve always been big, ALWAYS. I don’t know a life of being skinny, so it’s super hard to see a “goal body” because I have no idea what I look like but I’m ready. I don’t want to spend my whole life this big and never know what it’s like to be a normal size. Any words of encouragement would be great or any tips would be awesome!! Any tips on how to control hunger, BED, or carb cravings. Wish me luck..
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