I’m (F,21,5’5) around 11 stone at the moment, while my ideal would be 9.
For several years I have bounced between 9-11 stone, because of my addiction to fast food, and it makes me feel extremely hopeless and angry at myself. It makes me feel like any progress I make is only temporary.
I get such a dopamine rush from the ordering, the waiting, getting to eat hot food immediately while feeling that I’m ‘treating’ myself. Love the salt and sugar. afterwards I feel like shit and feel ashamed of the boxes. I rarely order more than once a week but I order more than I should when I do. Because I work a 9-5 and work from home ( I live alone) when I’m not spending time with my partner ( who works 9-5 at a school) or with friends ( who also work) I’m by myself. so the food is definitely more about comfort and loneliness I think more than anything else. I want to go out to events and make new friends and even be confident enough to just do things by myself but I get anxious, especially as I now feel self conscious about my weight. I enjoy healthy food and I’m not a bad cook, it’s just the mental aspect of finishing work each day to cook from scratch for one person, it feels like a lot of work for little reward. But maybe that is just a symptom of me not caring enough for myself to do what’s right and good instead of what’s comfortable.
I am currently seeing a therapist and in the process of introducing this to her to hopefully address the emotional aspect of it.
but I guess my question is this- if anyone on here has dealt with something similar. how, in the long term do you change your mindset? because I’ve lost the weight before and I can do it again. But never in a way that lasts where I don’t revert back to old habits.
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