45F 5'4" SW: 311 CW: 294 GW: 199
Just for some context, I work Sunday through Thursday so Friday and Saturday are my weekend :)
So I have had a horribly unhealthy weekend in regards to eating. I ate cake, cinnamon rolls, fried chicken, fried okra, Taco Bell, you name it. I logged NOTHING yesterday because I didn't want to know how much over I was. Today I logged and I am not over yet. If I eat anything else I will be, but for now I'm good.
When I was logging my food, I realized I was not over and immediately thought "Oh! that means I can have something else!" Then I realized I am not sure I want anything else. I stopped and thought about if I was hungry and I realized the I honestly have no idea. Sure, I know that gut spasm feeling when I haven't eaten all day and I'm running on fumes, but is that what normal "Hey it's time to eat lunch" feels like? It's kind of embarrassing to say this but I honestly don't know.
I have always had such an unhealthy relationship with food that I have trained myself to ignore my bodies queues on eating. The only feeling I can recognize is when I am way over full. Realizing this about myself is both depressing and exciting. It's depressing because WTH! How is it that as a grown A$$ woman I am clueless on if I am hungry or not. It is exciting because maybe I can figure out how to pay attention to those long forgotten queues and actually eat like a normal, healthy person.
Funny thing, which is kind of related and kind of not, I also realized I have an addictive relationship with food. I know I should only eat when I am actually hungry(once I realize when that is lol), but I found myself wanting to continue to eat this weekend even after I was uncomfortably full. I was sitting there watching TV feeling miserable because I was so full, yet I was still thinking "Once I'm not so full, I think I want (fill in various snacks/food)" . And to make it worse, I told myself I would just exercise the extra food off, so it would be okay. Even as I told myself that, I knew it wasn't true, it was just food junkie rationalization!
Here is where all of you come in! How can I teach myself to listen to these queues from my body? As silly as this sounds, how can I tell if I'm hungry? There has got to be a middle ground between the sick feelings I get when I haven't eaten all day and the super full feeling I get when I over eat. Please help me act like a grown up!!!
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