I just wanna get to the finish line. It sucks cause yes I do feel my clothes getting looser but I go to a very athletic school so most people there are fit and active and I feel like the outlier. Idk I usually try not to let it bother me but today it made me really sad. I just wanna know what I look like under all these layers of fat, I’m 18, 5’5, I started at 260, last time I weighed myself I was 248, my short-term goal weight is 215 my long-term goal weight is 140. I feel like a failure because over the summer I could’ve worked out and ate healthy but i back-tracked a bit and maybe gained like 2 pounds but i couldn’t mentally do anything in the summer. I’m back in school exercising 4-5 days a week and I can’t necessarily count calories cause It’s a hassle to try to take food out of the dining halls so I just work on portion control. But yeah cause every morning I struggle to find clothes to put on without always wearing a jacket with everything I wear even in 90 degree Fahrenheit I’m sweating!!! my arms aren’t that flabby but they kinda are and I have stretch marks they’ve become less visible but im still very insecure about them. I’m 248 but I look like I probably weigh 200-190. It’s just so stressed cause I wanna wake up and already be at my goal and it just makes me sad. I took a rest day today, I don’t have a choice to not loose weight in my lifetime. I don’t want diabetes like my dad does and I don’t want to waste my adult years worried about my weight, it’s the only thing that has plagued my mind for the past 3 years. I just want to look back one day and say “I actually did it” 😣☹️☹️☹️
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