It's been almost 5 years since I've been in the best place in my life. 5 years ago today marks the most important deal I've made in my narrow field of business, and marked halfway through losing ~75 pounds that year.
At the start of 2016, I had a somewhat spontaneous decision to lose weight after reading a post that resonated with me elsewhere and I ended up here. I started with the basics of CICO and logging and generally succeeded quite well, even with an on-again-off-again issue with large amounts of calories being spent daily on energy drinks. But I still managed to drop from 233 pounds at the start to hovering between 155-160. I maintained there for a while, but late 2017 on my life changed and so did my weight. It fluctuated a lot, but it spiraled badly along with much of the rest of my life in the past couple years.
A horrible relationship that lasted much of those years, an extremely unhealthy relationship with a game I played semi-professionally, abusing certain medications, developing an eating disorder, and a lot of other mental health issues building up have set me to being nearly twice the weight I was at the end of 2016. I've been fighting and losing the fight to get back on track to even get back to maintaining weight this year. I am also now off of medication that was contributing to a lack of appetite, and I'm now on a few medications that each go hand in hand with weight gain, which have led to my severely pessimistic attitude. Between January and now, I have gained roughly 50 pounds.
So I guess pushing myself to make this post is the start of being accountable again. I am desperately trying to find some small win to hold onto. I have several more obstacles and am half a decade older than the last time I started and it feels infinitely more difficult.
This is mostly just a bit of a vent and posting so I can't just put it off to the next day again like I have for so long. Any tips for finding that lost motivation, or navigating the side effects of medications and the like are also appreciated. Thanks!
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