This isn't a philosophical question. I'm a full time student and full time paramedic. Around two months ago, I had enough. I started popping the buttons to my XL uniform shirt and I just couldn't bear the thought of being any bigger.
Yet. I eat all the time. I love food. Specially, I love bad foods. Burgers, pizzas, burritos, snack cakes. It's all I think about. I told my girlfriend that I wanted to lose weight and she agreed to go in with me. Well. I've only lost 10 pounds. She's lost 35. She changed her whole life and despite my want and desire to eat healthy, go to the gym, and be a man about this. I cannot. I always find myself in a drive thru. Or ordering in.
I used to take healthy meals to work but it's a busy 9-1-1 service and that meant I wasn't able to microwave my food. You either have the 15 minute to order your food at McDonald's and shove it into your mouth on the way to another call or you just don't eat. Some days I'd eat my cold fish and green beans but I felt like I was punishing myself. Slowly, I stopped bringing food to work.
I'm now at an impasse. I'm 24 years old, 250 pounds, 5'4" and I'm all gut fat. I look awkward. I want to change. But how do you stop thinking about that Chipotle burrito? Or a double cheeseburger from McDonald's? Sometimes I'll think about for hours between calls. Or go to sleep thinking about the food I'll eat when I wake up. At this point. It's so depressing that I don't know if I can keep going like this. I'll eat the food and feel terrible about it. I want to change my lifestyle. For good.
How?
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