I used to be fat. Now I’m not. My beloved grandmother died last week and now I can’t stop eating. I need healthier coping strategies so I don’t gain it all back.

X-posted from r/relationships.

My grandmother passed away the day last week. We were extremely close and I miss her terribly. She had been sick for about 2 weeks beforehand - and previous to that, I had COVID-19. All in all this has been a terrible time. My energy levels are in the toilet and I feel numb and can’t do anything except lie in bed or eat. I’ve been eating like 3k calories a day for the past 2 weeks and I am physically uncomfortable after every meal.

When she was alive, my grandmother made amazing pancakes and I’ve been eating a giant stack of pancakes for breakfast almost every morning because I miss her.

I know I’ve gained about 7lbs since the end of august because of all these things. I lost 80lbs in 2017 and I am terrified of regaining all the weight and hate myself lately. But eating is so easy and makes me feel better, for a little bit at least.

Long story short: HOW do I stop comfort eating and develop a better coping strategy for my grief?

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