43F 5’4” SW: 300, CW: 211, GW: 143-154
I've struggled with my weight for more than 15 years, and I've lost and regained vast quantities of weight five times now. When I say vast, I mean between 80 and 110lbs. I've worked with nutritionists, dieticians, life coaches, mental health professionals, the works, so I've learned a huge amount about nutrition, training, my triggers and my mental state along the way.
Of course that didn't stop me spiralling like a mofo last year, and on 1 Jan I weighed in at my heaviest ever - 300lbs. What a shock that was. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I laced up my trainers (wow that was a mission in itself) and I got to work. I'm following a CICO way of eating with calories set at 1500 per day, no food groups eliminated, high protein, moderate carb, low fat, and I train six days a week (combination of cardio, HIIT and bodyweight training as gyms are still closed where I am), and I go for a walk every afternoon. So far I've lost almost 90lbs, and although I've still got a long way to go, I'm looking and feeling so much better.
That's where the problem lies. I've reached this same point 5 times before. Where I've lost a significant amount of weight, people are telling me I look fantastic, I'm feeling super good about myself, and so I start to loosen the reins a little. An extra mouthful here, an extra sip there, and before I know it, I'm back sitting on my couch at 300lbs, binge-watching series surrounded by a sea of takeaway boxes and wondering where it all went wrong.
Part of the problem is that I tend to carry my weight fairly well (at least I think so, very welcome to disagree, lol):
Progress pic from 1 Jan to yesterday: https://imgur.com/gjFXI87
So I'm not sure if you'd say that I'm still over 200lbs by looking at my current pic. Obviously that's still significantly overweight, and for my health I need to weigh a lot less than that. But because I think I look better and people tell me I look better, I slack off. And what that's done is cause havoc with my mental state. I'm not sure if I truly believe it's possible for me to get past this point, or if it's even possible for me to ever reach my goal weight (I never have, ever).
I also think to myself, "You're too old to weigh 143-154lbs, you should just be satisfied with where you are now." So there really is a huge mental block for me to overcome, and that's what I need help with. Staying motivated all the way to my goal weight, and believing implicitly that I absolutely do have this in me, both physically and mentally. I also don't want to just look good compared to what I used to look like at 300lbs, I want to look good, period. Which means getting to my goal weight and staying there.
So any tips? And thanks so much for reading :)
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/i71imv/its_my_sixth_time_breaking_100kg_and_i_really/
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