I guess I'm reaching out here as a last hope, or at least what feels like I last hope. Maybe I don't even know why I'm here. I do know that my weight has been the thing in my life that has crippled me all throughout, and I don't know how to overcome it. I've tried and failed, tried and failed, and tried and failed to lose this weight, but it seems to be the thing in my life that I cannot overcome. I've used this sub and positive people in it to boost confidence and find reassurances in the past, but I don't know where I am at this point. Eating is the thing that I use to soothe so many things in my life, and each time I try to remove it, the weight decreases while the misery spikes. Eventually that process corrects itself and I end up back at the starting point.
Something new has been happening recently though. I've began experiencing what feels like heart complications that come and go with my poor diet choices, and being as big as I am for as long as I have been only supports that something would eventually fail. I don't feel like I'm on my deathbed, but something is different. At the present I weigh 346lbs and I'm going into 4th semester of RN school... a time that will surely push my stress levels through the roof. I hurts me to re-read that sentence.... "346lb health-care professional." Who am I to be telling others how to adjust their behaviors when I'm such a shining example of what failure to do so looks like? There are times where I feel I should stop doing the RN thing because of the sheer hypocrisy. I just don't know what else to do anymore, and I'm tired of failing. Maybe I'm reaching out you guys for guidance, maybe this is a cry for help... I just don't know where to turn anymore, and I figured that since so much of my issue stems from my weight, you guys might be able to help. I apologize in advance if I'm not in the right place.
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