(20F) Last year I lost 30lbs in 6 months after peaking at 5’1”, 180lbs. I was working my first part time job, active, eating right, and all was well. Then I went on campus and gained it all back. Not because the food was good, mind you- it was awful. Fried steak, fried fish Fridays, fried chicken Thursdays, pasta all week, burgers every day. Half the time what they served was borderline inedible. I almost chipped a tooth when I bit something tiny yet hard as a rock in my burger. I ended up eating nearly entirely french fries, burgers, cheezits, and Nutella for an entire year.
I finally weighed myself again a couple weeks ago and I was right back to 180lbs. I panicked, immediately started TRF, and have lost about 5lbs since. But then I went to the doctor the other day for my physical. Turns out I’m 70lbs overweight. I mean, I knew I was, but hearing someone say it to me was like a bucket of cold water being thrown over my head.
It’s so hard to lose weight in this household. I live with my mom, and we’ve both been heavy for the longest time, but we differ in one major way- she’s an emotional eater while I’m a boredom eater. And boy, is she emotional. I’ve begged her to stop but there’s always cookies or ice cream or muffins in the kitchen and it’s so hard to fight it.
But I won’t live like this. I won’t live not being able to see my own feet when I look down, and feeling my arms squish over fat, and sucking my gut in every time I leave the house. I hate looking in the mirror and feeling sickened by my reflection. I REFUSE TO LOOK LIKE A THUMB FOR ONE MORE DAY GODDAMMIT.
I do as many leg lefts as I can before bed, I walk the dog, and I’m working on building up the strength to do sit-ups and pushups as well. It’s not much but it helped then, so maybe it’ll help now. I’m also trying to eat more lean protein and eat less in general- I’m the sort to eat until I feel like I’m gonna be sick.
I’m just posting this to say it I think. Advice is welcome and appreciated!! I’ve always done things pretty informally so I’m sure I’m unaware of a lot of things. I hope in a month I’ll be making another post saying I’ve lost 10lbs :P
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