I'm crawling back.

I'm here again.

Day one. Again.

I have to do it this time. I HAVE to. To not stick with it this time is surely a death sentence and it scares me that that doesn't scare me. Why doesn't it scare me?

I'm 34 years old. I'm 353lbs. That's almost back to my highest weight ever. Just 3lbs short of it. I HAVE to do it this time. I think there won't be a next time. My joints hurt. My blood pressure is high. Lord only knows whats going on with my heart.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess to tell SOMEONE that this has to be the time that sticks. I'll be doing keto again. I threw out all the bad food. I redownloaded MFP. I found an old smart watch to wear since I lost my Fitbit to count my steps.

I know HOW to do this. I know the science and CICO and not being so lazy. But I need to find to motivation for this. I'm just so tired.

Any advice, motivation, friendship would be greatly appreciated it.

This is it. The rest of my life. I HAVE to do it.

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