This may be a long rant and I do apologise but it’s 3AM local time and I’m looking through old memories trying to find any motivation to get me back on the path to a fit and healthy life and I am beyond frustrated.
A little background to me, I come from a very sporty family (3 of my extended family have made it professional in various disciplines) and it was always a massive part of my childhood then into my teens.
At the end of my teenage years and final year in school I suffered a very bad ankle injury. Between that injury immobilising me for 4 months and studying for my final exams I really piled up the weight. Majority of it was stress related and I never adjusted my eating habits to the fact I was not training daily like before.
The day I got my final results and realised I was going to college I weighed in approx 67 pound heavier than my weight that I used to walk around at when playing sport. With the burden and worry of wondering if I made college off of me I focused my life and structured it around losing the weight which I did by the end of my freshman year.
I don’t think I ever focused or planned and executed something as successful as that year when it came to exercise and my diet. I completely eradicated sugar from my life for 17 months. Cut out takeaways and sugary drinks and I was probably fitter than ever that summer break.
At this point in my life something big happened in another aspect of my life that a 4 year relationship ended so for the first time since I was 15 I was single and in the shape of my life. As any young man my age would I dived head first into the dating world and was finding success.
In fact, and I don’t want to come across as cocky but, I was too successful for my own good and I didn’t know how to handle it at all. I had no experience on the dating scene outside of being with the girl I was in the relationship with for 4 years. I messed up some brilliant possible relationships being an absolute idiot that I look back today and seriously regret.
I am from a small town which I am still living in as I have a very good job and it currently makes no sense for me financially to move away. However as it is as small town talk spreads fast and I think I kind of and probably fairly picked up a bad reputation on the dating scene so I decided I would take a year out to work on myself and decide what I want.
As mentioned earlier I have a very good job for someone of my age but also very high pressure. As I was no longer on the dating scene and after the bad ankle injury I never felt comfortable to going back to play contact sport I put all my effort into succeeding in my career for the past 12 months.
I put unbelievable work in and it paid off financially as I was advised before Christmas I am to be promoted and talking numbers next week everything is great except for one massive roadblock.
I have ballooned in weight again but this time I can’t seem to spark any reaction or any motivation to get myself out of this situation. I promised myself I’d start the last 3 days and each day I have failed miserably (today was the worst by far)
I’m starting again tomorrow but I don’t have the confidence to know once I get back on the saddle I can see it out this time. The job will be even more high pressure this year than last year with a promotion, I haven’t spoke to a girl in a romantic capacity in close to 12 months so I have nothing or no one like that on the scene to try and motivate myself and I’m not in a position where I can go back and play sport to the same capacity I once did.
I know people say you should always do it for yourself and no one else but I can’t for whatever reason force myself into the mindset like I did years ago.
Looking back on my old photos I was hoping would give me a reaction and I’d hop back on the right track but I sit here now and miss all the old memories and opportunities I had and can’t force myself to look ahead of what is to come down the line for me.
I assume I’m not the only person that has found themselves in the same situation so I would appreciate any advice or story about how you pushed yourself to do it even when you didn’t think you had it in you at the time.
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