First off, I just want to say how much I appreciate this community for being here as a shoulder to lean on. My life is quite lonely, and I’ve been on this journey by myself since 2021, off and on. It’s hard to talk to other people about how it feels to lose weight and adapt better habits when no one else in my small circle is doing that.
Down to business: Been away from home since September, at college. Lost 7 pounds in the first month and a half between exercise and eating habits (I guess). Stopped going to the gym regularly over the last month due to stress and being so tired all the time (sleeping has not been great for a myriad of reasons). Started binging again (no gym/exercise leads me to binge). Gained a few pounds back, body feels different. Haven’t gone this long without exercising before. Now I am feeling bad about my body, and reflecting on myself for my poor food choices and coping mechanism. Trying to be easier on myself, but it’s hard when all I can think about is going home for the break (next month) and my family seeing me and not seeing a drastic change.
I didn’t always want that. I came here just hoping I didn’t gain all the weight back. (Which was also something I was told by family, repeatedly) And I haven’t. I’m still less than what I was.
While I am getting back into my gym/exercise routine now, I know it is not realistic to lose 20 pounds in one month. And I feel so bad about myself that I “did this wrong.” Last month I was dealing with so much stress and so many sleepless nights due to that stress and anxiety, that I can’t blame myself for not doing all the “right things.” I did the best I could. But how do I accept that forgiveness to myself so I can stop feeling so bad?
(Also if anyone has tips for managing stress while in college, please let me know. I can’t sleep through the night anymore…)
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