I'm a 23 year old nonbinary person, biologically female but I was on testosterone for about a year and a half so my body carries weight in a really weird way right now. I was always tall and gangly until I hit around 17/18. I think my weight gain was due to a bunch of different things, but part of it was my appetite not changing once I stopped going through that massive growth spurt. I also started really struggling with depression and dysphoria around this time and once I went off to college I didn't have a healthy relationship with food established and so it just got worse.
Currently I'm 5'9ish and 220lbs and while I know that's not as big as I could be, I still have about 70lbs to lose. I've been trying for over a year and I keep stumbling and starting over, but I'm at a point where I think I know what works for me and what doesn't pretty well, it's just the consistency that kills me.
So last week my car's engine totally failed on me. I'm a delivery driver, so there goes my source of income. I've been under a ton of stress since then, but I think it's allowed me to really sit back and notice just how often I was going through the drive through or getting doordash now that I literally can't anymore. I've been walking to the gym, walking to the grocery store, walking to meet up with friends. I've been eating what I have in my pantry and freezer, and I've been eating pretty much intuitively. I have $24 stashed away that I'm saving for when I need to Uber to the car dealership but other than that I have no money to spend on fast food and you know what? For the first time the scale is actually moving. I mean it really sucks that it's taken losing my freedom and being in a crisis to realize how dependent I was on junk fast food and just how much that was holding me back even though I was working out pretty often, but I think this might have been a change that needed to happen.
Obviously I'm doing everything I can to get my car back and get back to work, but I'm using this chance to cut fast food entirely and really focus on paying attention to my body, walking a lot, and generally taking really good care of myself. This might be the breakthrough I needed to start digging out that lean, long-legged kid I used to be.
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