Hello! I'm back here at my heaviest than I've ever been.
SW: 140 CW:135 GW:110 ish
It's been about 4 days and I've gone over about 200 calories everyday except for the 2 days I went over by around 800.
I've always been a binge and I know that. I've eaten when bored, sad, just because, basically just whenever I felt like it. Sometimes I eat just because I thought about food, so impulsive eating.
I have my weakness foods and overall I'm trying to learn two things. Control, and portioning.
I've had to relearn what full, satisfied, and hungry is. And its hard. Food is usually always on my mind because I have nothing else to do and I'm too broke to do anything. I've been playing video games lately to keep my mind off food and it's worked for the most part but I still binge whenever someone eats near me or offers or asks to get food.
It's hard to be left out especially when they have a higher TDEE.
Some of my wins though?
I've mostly stopped drinking soda. I only drink it when I eat out now. I don't eat out everyday. I eat home cooked foods more than pre heated foods now. I'm drinking more water than anything else.
I was here a long time ago. I was around 125 wanting to lose weight and I did. I managed to get down to 105 and several years later I'm worse off.
Its hard to know you have a problem with food, it feels hopeless when you go back to your binging, and it feels hopeless when your brain and habit wins over your desire to lose it.
I dislike myself and I'm mad at myself. I know I've been here before and i still managed to lose the weight.
I'm trying CICO and IF but it's hard.
Any encouragement? I really appreciate it.
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