I ran a race this past weekend. There were photographers on the course. I took a pic of myself before I left my hotel because I was excited and proud of the work I've done to get there... Even though I've been struggling with losing for over a year and fluctuating around the same 10 lbs. BF% is down, measurements are down. I'm down in some sizes, but not by much. All the food restrictions I've followed and counting every damn calorie and believing I'm doing all I can while I still deal with everything on my plate...
I went to the race and there was a moment where I felt like a badass... And surprise! A photographer was there capturing the moment. I was psyched for days about getting a cool race photo out of it.
Well... I'm disappointed to say the least. I can't believe I felt so strong and excited because I look so... Bad. My SO told me that I look "strong". I really don't feel like I do. I feel like all of my insecurities are right there, on display. All of my failures. All of the things I've been hating about myself for years. I look no different from a year ago.
I completely crashed and cried and I have zero motivation to keep working. I feel like such a loser (not in the good way) and I don't ever want to do this again. Am I just stupid? Am I missing something? How do you see progress? Can I post the pics to show you what I'm talking about?
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