Anyone else think they have something very much psychological going on when it comes to their weight?
Like this weird 1 moment knowing your overweight but blowing it way further out of portion, and then later not realizing how big you really actually are?
Im not sure how to explain it. As a kid i was definitely overweight but not obese, and looking back it really wasn't that bad. But as a kid I tried hiding my weight witth clothes, being antisocial etc. I always thought i was absolutely huge.
Now as a 26 yr old its concerning that I dont see how bad it's become. I haven't lost weight but in fact just kept gaining. I still avoid mirrors, social events and get togethers etc. Because I feel disgustingly big.
But here is the mind fuck, when I step on a scale, or see a picture of myself, see what size clothes I wear now..... My brain mentally cannot understand how i am that big. I know im overweight but my mind cannot understand what it really looks like now.
Its really fucking with me. I have been asking for a doctor referral for a therapist who can help but so far nothing yet ( referral so it will be covered, as i am low income and can't afford it).
I keep thinking okay tomorrow, and I wake up and say fuck that. I can't keep on with healthy eating, cutting garbage out, counting calories just nothing.
Im losing my life, I have missed out on so much life already. I don't want to lose more of it because of food.
In the past 2 years I have gained 100 pounds, to get down to a normalish weight i will have to lose 200 pounds. I just cant see that as possible currently.
I dont know what to do any more, when all my past attempts have failed every time.
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