I have struggled with my weight ever since I can remember. It seemed like none of my good grades nor the fact that I never brought my parents any trouble (unlike my brothers) mattered... because I was a fat kid.
I was anorexic when I was in high school, bulimic when I was in college and until now. I’m now in my early 30s and trying my best to lose weight the right way. I’m also trying my best to be kind to myself and accept the fact that being healthy doesn’t mean being stick thin.
To tell you the truth, it’s not the exercise nor the planning and preparation of healthy meals that I find difficult. It’s the people around me that’s making it difficult for me to move forward and do better. Hearing my own parents and brother talk about how disgusting fat people are, how they feel sorry for women like me because no one will every want to marry us and have kids with us, how they laugh at our struggle and blame it on our lack of discipline. Sometimes I just want to scream at their faces and tell them to shut the F up, but for some reason I just can’t.
I think it’s because there’s a huge part of me that actually believes them...that actually thinks I am a worthless, disgusting human being and that I deserve every bit of insult. Their words are hurtful, demotivating, and make me want to give up when I’m not seeing the progress I hoped for.
If you’ve also experienced struggling with toxic people in your life, I really hope you can share how you were able to overcome the negativity and regain your self worth. How can I shut them out?
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