I was never thin, I always had a big booty, hips, and chest. But my waist was tiny - perfect hour glass shape. Curvy but no one would've ever called me over-weightt. It was the best thing I had going for myself - looks wise.
But after I got pregnant, the weight kept coming. Every few months I would weigh more and more. I went from a size medium to a size XL in two years. And now XL clothes are starting to feel tight and I'm literally ripping my pants with my thighs.
I used to be able to eat whatever I wanted with no weight gain. But these days, even if I drastically lower my food intake, I am still gaining weight.
My husband passed away unexpectedly last year, and I couldn't eat much for the first few months. I actually did lose some weight and my body started to - very slowly - get that hourglass shape again. But I started eating again about 5 months after he passed. And more than usual. I know, I was grief eating. But now it's gotten so bad, I do not recognize my body. XL clothes are now too small for me. I never had back fat in my life, it only started a little bit after I had my daughter, but now it's just so much!
I can't even suck my stomach in when I'm wearing a dress- I'm just literally sticking out everywhere. I am horrified I let it get this bad. And not that I'm fat shaming myself - I was always a bigger girl, but now I am uncomfortable. I don't look like myself and it's painful to squeeze into clothing and I don't feel healthy.
My job has a gym I can use after work. Today will be my first day using it. I brought gym clothes and sneakers and a towel.
But I don't know where to start! I've never exercised in my life - I've always hated it - and I'm severely out of shape. If I ever have to run, even for a short spurt to catch a train or bus, I am wheezing and out of breath. But I need to at least this extra belly and back fat, and trim down my thighs a little if possible.
But I've never done this! I could use some advice.
What machine do I use? Treadmill? Cycling? For how long? What stretches should I do first? How often should I do it?
And with my very busy schedule, I've gotten in the habit of snacking all day long. I don't eat meals, I just eat snacks every hour or so. I know this is awful, but I don't have time to cook. And even when I do and want to - 1, I am a TERRIBLE cook. My husband was the one that cooked while I worked full time. I have messed up everything I've tried to cook on my own. 2, I HATE cooking. I just hate it! It's so messy and it takes so long! and 3, I have NO IDEA what to buy when I'm at the grocery store. I always tell myself I'm going to start eating better and cooking but then I get to the store and I'm lost on what to buy. I wish someone would give me a list. I've tried to write my own, but I still don't know what to write!
I had a rough childhood, my mother never taught me anything. When I moved out and ran as far away from her as I could get, I taught myself everything. Slowly. But not cooking - I never learned and I always ate prepared meals or snacks before I met my husband.
Since he's passed away, I have taught myself even more. I have put together all the furniture alone - even ones that require two people. I don't have two people, so gotta make it work! Took me all day - literally all day - on one piece, but I did it! Had to take apart what I did and re-do it a couple times. But then I just kept doing it. Now I can put together any furniture that needs to be assembled.
I learned about cars because my car broke down so often and I couldn't keep affording tow trucks and mechanics. Now I know a lot about cars.
I'm more of a bookworm type that's really into nerdy stuff and terrible at life skills, but I've been forced to learn everything I was never taught as a kid, and then some when I lost the person that did the things I hadn't taught myself yet.
EXCEPT COOKING. UGH I HATE IT AND I NEED HELP.
I NEED to eat healthier and I need to work-out.
Can someone please offer some advice and maybe share their literal grocery list? So I know what to buy? And maybe what to do with the incredients? And any Amazon kitchen hack device that makes cooking easier would help! I just got an egg cooker and omg I am literally RELEIEVED because my daughter likes hard boiled eggs, and so do I, but I hated making them and messed them up always.
Sorry this was a novel!
Please and thank you!!
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