Losing weight with a history of disordered eating

TW: ED

32f, 180cm.

TLDR - losing weight successfully using a string to measure

I just wanted to post to have a little celebration on my progress, and ask for information or additional strategies on my continued weight loss journey.

I had an ED as a teenager, which led to a very disordered pattern of eating. About six months ago, I decided enough was enough, and I as going to lose some of it and get to a healthy and happy level. However, the problem is that I can't weigh myself (because I will freak out about how heavy I am compared to what 'I used to be'), I can't take and record measurements (same reason), and I can't use an aspirational item of clothing.

So, I decided to use a piece of string. I marked on where my dimensions were with a texta, and then decided every two or so months I would compare.

I also started by counting calories, but I found after a month I was getting fixated on it, so after chatting with my psych we decided to chuck it. My strategy has been instead to walk places, and cook what I want at home - but it needs lots of veggies. I use skim milk, low fat margarine, spray oil and the like to help cut down on excess. I have developed a taste for frozen berries, which I eat as dessert to stop any other snacking.

This morning I pulled out my string to compare my progress. Easter had been filled with chocolate, and I had been eating out more in the last month.

However, it shows I have lost 5cm! I'm so happy with that! I can't tell any difference when I look into a mirror (but I have never been able to, even when I was much smaller), but I have proof that my slow and steady approach is working. I'm losing weight healthily and in a sustainable way that isn't triggering any ED. I have an end point in sight. I know it's a healthy goal because I'm in touch with my therapist. In another few months, I will dig out some pants I used to love when I was skinnier (but not unhealthily so) and keep going gently until I reach that point.

I'm trying to balance things and I'm keeping a constant check on my mental health, where I am in a very stable and good place. I think I'm doing the right things - I'm getting tangible results - but I also wanted to ask if anyone has any suggestions?

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