I'm dealing with a bit of a mental dilemma right now.
I am SO close to my goal weight! Under ten pounds to my goal. I feel great. I feel like I look great. People keep complimenting how slim my face looks, and how clear my skin is. I'm SUPER happy with my progress. I've had a couple of setbacks (gained 4 pounds back over Christmas) and allowed myself the occasional cheat day (pasta and drinks around Halloween, the occasional outing that pushed me over a few hundred calories) and I'm always able to tell myself to brush it off and just jump right back on track. I've been on this journey for about 8 months and I've been meticulous about balance. Don't undereat. Don't overeat. Don't stop your life for a diet- allow yourself the opportunity to go out and enjoy life in moderation. Just drink less alcohol when you go out. Take half servings of pasta. Order a salad before you take those slices of pizza. Get the thin crust. Etc etc. Don't starve. Don't binge.
But its getting harder the closer I get to my goal. It's like I want to race to the finish line. I don't want to keep slipping up! Right now, I'm dealing with a situation. I've been in Japan for three years, but I leave in two weeks to go back to America. Because of that, everyone wants to hang out this week. I went to lunch on Tuesday. I went out for drinks and food and dessert last night. Tonight, they want to go get sake and sushi. And tomorrow, they want to go to another bar that serves SUPER high calorie, fantastic, fabulous desserts and drinks.
And part of me wants to do all of these things. But part of me is also struggling. Usually, when I """Cheat""" its just one night of cheating. I'll have one big meal and jump right back on track the next day. I've never had a whole week of cheat days. And there's a twisted, guilty part of me that wants to say NO. Sorry. I ate too much this week. I can't go out. We have to do something that DOESN'T involve food. But I also want to enjoy these last few meals with my friends. I just can't do it guilt free.
It's hard for me to put these feelings into words. The part of me that loves to eat and wants to drink a full pint of kahlua milk with my friends and eat an enormous slice of cake is DESPERATE to do these things. But the stubborn part of me that wants to meet my goal and finally BE THERE is upset and guilty. I want to do these things guilt free. I'm NOT cancelling on my friends. I'm GOING to enjoy these last few crazy fun meals with them! But how do I shut up the guilty part? I can jump back on the wagon next week. Logically, I know I'm not going to regain more than a pound from a few days of cheating. I'll only be set back a few days to a week. But I just can't get that evil, dark worry and guilt out of my head.
Anyone else know how I'm feeling? How do you shut up the guilty part of you and just enjoy life when you're trying to reach a goal weight?
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