I wanted to share where I am at, because lately I have been full of criticism and excuses, and I know others out there have been through my struggle. And as the title suggests, it stems from a relapse. Two years ago I weighed 360 lbs as a 28 year old male. I lost 100 pounds over the course of 10 months. Then my weight slowly began to climb back up as my activity level decreased due to schedule pressure. I kept it around 280 for about 6 months. Now, I have crept back up to 320. It all stems from making excuses and laziness. It was gradual at first, but then I said fuck it, and just went about eating whatever I wanted. Binging on sweets and other carbs because they made me feel good. I have lost my way. I realized just how bad it was when I went to try on my dress clothes this evening and I barely got 2 buttons closed. I know what it takes to get there, but I find motivation has all but left me. Stress is my key trigger, and the current state of affairs is not helping. My work/sleep schedule is all screwed up now that I am working night shift. I'm having to help homeschool my kids, while finishing my MS degree. And I have to help keep the house running in decent shape. So I guess this is my response, I am beaten down. I am lost. I am scared. I eat my feelings because it is a constant positive feedback loop and I have no way to break it. I starved the beast, and it is slowly trying to consume me. Thank you for letting me write out how I feel now it is real. Time to fix it. Tomorrow, just a little better than today.
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