Since I was 12, I've struggled with binge eating disorder on and off. These last three years have been particularly challenging for me, and about a month and a half ago now I decided that I would get better. Getting better to me looked like living a life without binge eating, and also like building healthy habits around food and exercise.
So, I downloaded a book called Brain Over Binge to help with the mental aspect of recovery, and then I started building a picture of how I wanted my eating and exercise to look like. Counting calories has always triggered me to binge, so this time I decided that I would no longer do it. I am, however, at an unhealthy BMI, and I don't feel good in my body the way it is now. Once upon a time I got wrapped up in the mentality of "you don't need to change yourself if you love yourself ", but not anymore. I'm changing myself because I love myself, and those two things can very much coexist. I've started doing 16:8 IF and I've reduced portion sizes. I try to eat mindfully (using chopsticks instead of a fork really helps with this??), and before I eat I ask myself: "do I really want this?" All of my meals are mostly vegetables, but there's always protein and usually carbs. For snacks, I'll eat fruit and/or veg.
As for exercise, I don't have much of a routine now that all the gyms are closed, but I try to move every day. Mostly, I've been going for long walks, the occasional run, and I've been doing hiit in my basement.
In the last month and a half, I have binged 3-4 times. The last time was a week and a half-ish ago, and that really felt like the last time. Earlier this year I was binging once every 2-3 days, so this is a major victory for me.
Recovery is slow, but it is so, so, so worth it. Today I felt truly confident for the first time in years. While I'm not exactly where I want to be with my body, I know now that I am on the right track. I can already feel my social anxiety decreasing (not that I'm being super social w anyone anyway atm), and I just overall feel happier. More than anything, i feel free.
Anyway, just thought I'd share. Hopefully this gives inspiration to someone going through something similar (-:
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