I've been struggling with my weight ever since I graduated high school. It became worse when I met my bf now fiance (Luis) about 3 years ago. The struggle comes from our diet and how hard it is to keep junk food out of the house. I'm the type that if I see it I eat it, when I lived with my father while I was going to college it wasn't easy to lose weight but I could keep weight off because he didn't buy junk food if you wanted something sweet you had to make it yourself but with Luis and his dad they are always buying cheap cookies, ice cream, pies or anything else loaded with sugars. Luis's father has gout and diabetes but refuses to change his diet. Every meal prepared by him usually consists of lots of starch ( rice, potatoes, pasta sometimes both potatoes and rice) and some meats (turkey, beef, pork, chicken or a combination as well). I don't dislike these foods but I know that they aren't good to eat all the time especially since the only veggie in any of the combinations of meat and carbs is corn. I try to buy greens like broccoli and kale or spinach but they go untouched, I come home early to cook but find that they already did and its the same meals. I know I can't force them to eat healthily but everyone in the house struggles with weight issues. I'm 5"4 and pushing 300lbs my fiance is 5"5 and around 300lbs as well and his father is 5"5 around 330lbs. We can afford healthy food but neither of them will eat it. I've tried cooking healthier and cutting back portions but they only complain.
Recently, Luis's mother has been staying with us. She has been here since Christmas and she's not helping our situation in the slightest. I would make Luis's lunch for work, his mother would change it to add more food. Also, every time she would make him a plate of food she would pile it high. I just can't win. I know, I swear, I know that I can't force them to eat right but I don't know how I can control myself with junk food right in front of me. I like to exercise but the weight isn't going to go unless I fix my diet. I've struggled all my life with binge-eating/overeating and I've found that the only thing that I can count on is just not buying junk food. I thought about moving out to fix my health but that would just make me miserable because I wouldn't want to be away from Luis and he doesn't want to move for financial reasons. I can't tell his dad to stop buying junk food because really... the man can do whatever the hell he wants, he's retired and is stuck in the house all day because of his weight and not having a car so whenever he gets access to Luis's car he goes out to buy junk food, for him its the only thing that makes him happy and unfortunately I don't know how to help him.
I just don't know what to do anymore I want Luis to eat healthily and work out with me because I really love him. I don't want us to be in constant pain all the time. we cant go up a freaking flight stairs without losing our breath, I used to ride my bike 8 miles back and forth to work and now I can't even walk up a hill to get to the pool in our neighborhood. We're so out of shape that walking the dog is a chore and we just put training pads out for her to use. I'm so upset with myself and what I've let myself succumb to. I hate that I'm always putting on this air of false confidence like some fat acceptance supporter when I don't like the way I feel, this isn't liberating I'm a prisoner in my own skin. I feel disgusted that I believe that it's ok to go to my fiance and I say I love him and expect him to feel the same when I find myself repulsive. I'm bi and I wouldn't fuck myself.
TL;DR Struggling with weight but lifestyle choices and living conditions make it hard to lose weight.
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