Hi I'm a 19F who just needs to get this off of her chest. Around October of last year I found out that I had PCOS and my options were hormone therapy or attempting to regulate my hormones through diet and exercise. I have struggled with my weight all my life (at the time I was 175 lbs at 5'3) and I've never been able to lose a single pound so I was leaning towards hormone replacement drugs to regulate my menstrual cycle. Honestly, the PCOS was really hard to deal with in my first semester of college especially because I was on my period for months at a time and I just felt really restricted by it.
Unfortunately, I come from a really strict family who would never let me visit a doctor alone or speak to the gynecologist alone (it would become a big family issue if I even tried to go behind their backs and it's just not worth it imo) and my mom wouldn't let me get on birth control or try the hormone pills.
So I decided to really commit to watching my diet and although it's been a really slow journey I'm really proud of myself. From late November to now I've lost 17lbs and it's not a lot but between trying to eat healthy at college and still enjoy freshman year and getting into my first real relationship (who knew there was so much snacking and food involved in those lol) I think I've been doing pretty well. Obviously I'm not done losing weight but I'm happy with the rate that it's going in.
Okay so 2 days ago I visited my gyno again because unfortunately the PCOS bleeding was just getting worse and I recently became sexually active and I felt more comfortable just taking birth control to regulate everything. I couldn't bring birth control up to my mom but she finally relented and said yes to taking medication to ease the symptoms.
In the doctor's office, the doctor was really rude to me. She saw I had lost weight and she said "do you honestly believe you're doing everything in your power to lose weight and giving it your all?" the tone that she used made me feel like crying on the spot- it felt like being reprimanded by your teacher after failing a test. She said that if I really committed to being healthier I would have given up most carbs and sugars and coffee. I'm a 19-year-old college student! I don't think it's worth giving up the small things I look forward to when it comes to food. I've been eating them in moderation but I'm not ready to give up my sweet tooth :( I have been working my ass off trying to become healthier and I really do think I have been giving it my best effort. Yes, I do think I could exercise more but I've been trying to incorporate workouts in my day and meeting my 10k steps and it's just really hard to balance everything. The worst part was asking if I was sexually active in front of my mom and I had to lie to her otherwise my mom would literally force me to commute if she knew.
In the end, I didn't get birth control. I got Provera to regulate my cycle and felt humiliated about my progress. I was told to come back if I ever become sexually active to try birth control but I don't think that will be happening anytime soon.
I don't know if this subreddit is the place for it but I honestly just feel really stupid right now. I've never been able to lose weight before and it's sort of a big deal for me that I found something that actually works and doesn't make me feel like crap but maybe it's not as big of a deal to others as it is to me :(
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