(Obligatory I'm on mobile, please forgive this horrible sin.)
I lost almost 50lb between April 2019 and December 2020. I felt great. I felt in control.
Then, once I hit goal weight, I decided to take a break. I was sick of the dieting life and strict calculations. I gained 18lb in less than 2 months. -_-
The whole time, I reassured myself that I could get back on track any time I wanted. I had a tried and true method to lose the weight again, and I had complete control to pull that trigger whenever I was ready.
For the past couple weeks, I told myself "today is the day". Then by lunchtime, I'd remind myself of all the wonderful snacks in the kitchen, cave to my cravings, and justify it by saying "I just need to eat all the tempting food so it'll be gone and that'll be that." For weeks, this continued.
Last night, feeling fully disgusted with myself for how far I've fallen off track, I decided enough was enough. I resurrected Zero (my Intermittent Fasting app) as well as My Net Diary (calorie tracker) and decided a random Thursday was as good a day as any to get back at it.
I woke up this morning, ready to take on the work day and fight through the readjustment of my fasting schedule.
Then I had the absolute WORST work day I've had in a very long time. Tedious. Stressful. Fixing mistakes made by someone else and so deep in the sh*t that I couldn't breathe clean air.
But I did it! I actually powered through this shitty day, planned out what I will eat for dinner tonight, and didn't try to snack even once. I don't even feel hungry, somehow? And in some effed up cosmic twist, my busy, shit-filled day probably helped me by keeping me focused on work and making the time pass faster.
Technically, I'm not out of the woods yet, as I still have a few things left to do for work, and still about an hour before I hit my fasting goal, but this is the best I've done since falling off the wagon, and damn it feels good. I know I won't cave now that I'm so close to the finish line, and anyway, I just wanted to tell someone who would understand. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. :)
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