tl;dr: I was obese, now I'm mildly fat and stopping to smoke week inspired me to lose weight for the first time in my life.
I struggled with depression, weed dependency and obesity for most of my adult life, from the age of 22 to 35 I smoked daily and in the last few years I upped to 2gr per day., at that point I was unemployed for 6 months but wasn't actively looking for a job because I was too busy feeling sad and smoking weed all the live long day. At this point it became a cycle of abuse, though in retrospect I have always used weed as a barrier between myself and any negative emotion.
I've tried to stop many times, but I always set myself predetermined exit points where I knew I would pick the habit up again.
What usually happens is that before I finish inhaling my entire stash or immediately after, I start to get anxious about having nothing left and I re-up and the cycle begins anew.
This time, after scraping my grinder for the last time for the microscopic bits of THC still remaining in it, smoking a spliff that was 99.999% tobacco and went to sleep before the weekend started, I woke up to my dealer not being available because he observes the Sabbath which has already started at this point. I didn't count on anyone else and didn't want to end up with some random shitty weed. I've decided to brave through the weekend.
One day turned to two, withdrawal was a bitch, because when you are dependent on anything for so long, it becomes part of your day to day, permeating into every activity, effectively replacing your normal serotonin mechanism with an easy to press manual button. The downside for me was: I had no ambition, no drive for life or being healthy or giving a shit about anything like my career, friendships and relationships, nothing mattered except getting the next score.
But once I reached 2 weeks, things got a little easier, I was still depressed and overeating in basically every meal, but I was also not burning through money I didn't actually have and that was an improvement.
After 9 months of unemployment, I was supposed to start working at the middle of March but my country went into our first lockdown 2 days before that so everything was put on hold for 2.5 more months. After 2+ months of being scared shitless of going outside and just binge eating continuously I was 344 lbs. at the end of the lockdown.
At the end of May I finally started working and the company was located in a really inaccessible area, which forced me to start walking 1.2mi. every day just to reach the bus station and then walk to the offices.
Once I finished that first week of work I made a decision to also do 1.2mi. in my neighborhood during the weekend, just so it won't feel like such a drag. After about 2 months of doing 1.2mi. every day I started working from home and I upped my daily walks to 2.7mi. every other day and signed up to a gym and actually kept coming there for the first time time in my life, but unfortunately this routine only lasted for 6 weeks before my country went into our second lockdown and closed all gyms indefinitely.
At that point I had no choice but to return to regular street walks but I upped my max distance again to 3.7mi. nearly every day, and after a few months of that I've reached the current point of daily 6.2-9.9mi. and that's about it.
14 months clean. 8 months of getting healthier and thinner and less depressed. My conclusion?
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Understand what your goals are and what specifically keeps you in habits that prevent you from reaching it, try to turn healthy habits to daily activities to reinforce habit forming and once that clicks, everything gets easier, and there's a lot less mental pushback on most days.
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If necessary, find technology that complements whatever it is you are trying to achieve, for me it was my Jabra 75t Elite wireless earbuds and Xiaomi MI Band 5 smart brand which gave me background music that gave me drive and analytical data about my progress.
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Music is an amazing motivator to push forward and not give up. For me it was death and black metal that really helped me go the extra mile (literally in this case lol).
If you read this entire thing, thank you. Just needed to share this and I hope it might help people get motivated and remain on the path. Good luck everyone :)
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/ljcntr/lost_131_lbs_during_the_lockdown_from_344_lbs_to/
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