I am 297lbs, 5'9.5, 21 [M]
I've always been a big kid, at my heaviest I was 318lbs. even when I was 13 I was a stocky kid on the pop warner team playing football team. I had stretch marks and I was pretty good looking for my age. I had a big appetite as a kid. I would order 3 doritos locos tacos, a power burrito, a quesorito and a large drink from taco bell at age 13. My parents didn't care because I would work it off playing sports. Well that all changed when the doctors said I couldn't play sports anymore because of my heart. (Heart surgery age 3 subaortic stenosis) so I was forced out of sports.
I stopped playing sports, starting playing video games and watching anime, and my appetite remained the same.
Things started changing when I was around 15 when I had a psychotic breakdown and was sent to a baker act facility. I was diagnosed Bipolar 2 and that explained a lot of my recent behavior. I got sent to a residential rehab facility when I was 17, and I ate about a 6,000 calorie diet every day for 5 months with little to no exercise. I gained about 55lbs. I went back to rehab again 6 months later and the doctors were already showing concern for my weight saying I need to watch what I eat. I didn't listen to them because I was 18 and a punk. I ate roughly 4,000 calories everyday for a month with little to no exercise. I was breaking 300lbs at 18.
My parents encourages and even enforced rules of locking the pantry, hiding snacks from me, and restricting video game time based off my weight. I.E If I got my weight down to 280, I would get 30 extra minutes on video games.
So I go off to college and nothing changes, I continue eating like garbage, but I do start working out because my family starts showing great concern for me. I'm the only fat dude in my family. I got a trainer and actually lost 22lbs!
But then gained it all back again when I fell off the horse.
This is a common trend I've been battling with my life.
I start working out, dieting, eating healthy, I lose weight, then I stop for some reason and gain it back all again.
And the doctors don't leave me alone either because of all of the health concerns they give me. I have hyperinsulimia and have to take like 5 different pills and a weekly shot. I do research on my conditions and I get so demoralized when I hear that my body literally can't burn fat because of my insulin levels. And the doctors aren't that much help. they talk to me for 3 minutes and then send me on my way with little to no education on what to do. Just "Oh, you're still fat. You're not suppose to be that. Try harder. see you in 3 months."
I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I have a boyfriend now! I want to be strong and protect him, I want to be fit and be at my very best so I can give him the very best. I want to find a routine I can stick to, have fun with, and enjoy doing.
It's really food that is my biggest draw back due to my health conditions.
Does anyone have any ideas, tips, tricks, advice for a obese, mentally ill, diabetic dude who really wants to change?
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