So for the past week or so I’ve been using the private ladies weights room at my gym. I don’t know if this is something every gym has or whatnot but since I discovered it I’ve enjoyed the privacy of doing my dumbbell and kettlebell exercises in an empty room.
Only problem is, I’ve been going in when there are no other ladies in there. I’m new to weight lifting and even though I know I’m doing the free weight exercises correctly, I can’t help but feel like I somehow look like an idiot. Before I started to branch out a little and go to the gym to do my workouts, I did all of my weight work from home with lighter weight. Bonus of going to the gym is that I can use 10KG dumbbells and kettlebells instead of one tiny 4KG Kettlebell!
But as I said I’m incredibly self conscious. I think it ties into the body dysmorphia that comes with losing weight— I think I am larger than I actually am or something. Anyway, there’s this guy that works in my gym who I’ve just found really attractive for the longest time, since years ago when I used to come swimming at my gym. There’s also another guy who works there who he’s friends with.
I have a hard enough time continuing if another girl walks in while I work out, let alone when they BOTH walked in tonight!
I froze. I know I’m being dramatic in my storytelling of this, but I really did feel instantly bad about myself. I just thought oh god, how can I continue, please just leave, I look so awful, blah blah. Then to make things better, the guy I like came over and asked if I was still using the dumbbells I had taken off the rack. Uh, YES, I AM! Lol. But of course I said, no, you can put them back if you like! Thanks!
I really could use some advice on this. I know it may seem silly to some but I suffer with anxiety and little things like this can really discourage me. I’m hoping there are some other people in this sub who have suffered with this and maybe overcome it, who can offer me any advice. This sub is so inspiring to me as there are so many amazing people trying to better themselves.
If you’ve read this far, thank you, and I hope you are all having a wonderful day!
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