I’ve struggled with my weight since I was a kid and with that I’ve had a terrible relationship with food. I bounced between not eating even when it hurt to eating until it hurt. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve cried in a restaurant bathroom or out with my friends shopping. When I graduated high school I moved away from my home town and started taking therapy seriously. I think walking across the stage hit me that there was a whole world waiting for me. I’m not exactly sure when but things get much better for me. I changed my relationship with food, I gained a lot of confidence and self love. I was hiking and walking nearly everyday, taking my studies seriously and most importantly I wasn’t crying in bathrooms or in change rooms anymore.
In March last year when covid hit i was laid off. At 21 being laid off was extremely hard to accept, I also began worrying about my rent, bills and student payments I had to make. Covid hit during my last semester of 2nd year and it was the worst semester every. I finished with two failed classes and my gpa dipped. I applied everywhere during the summer but nobody ever called back. I spent all day inside, and unfortunately I turned to food and alcohol as a crutch to deal with all these shitty feelings I was having. Looking back I cannot believe I didn’t think I had a problem, I mean I was drinking almost everyday and 10+ drinks each time. I started eating until I was in pain. I didn’t go for walks or do anything even remotely physical for months on end. I hit a huge low. 2020 had some good moments for me too but I developed this dark cloud again. I lost myself.
A few months ago I moved to a new city with my boyfriend! I finally got a job that I’m extremely excited about and I’ve been sober since the end of February. I joined a gym and even when I am tired after work or lazy on my days off, I force myself to go. I’ve been very consistent. I’ve been trying to eat away from screens so I force myself to listen to my body - I cut up veggies and make healthy snacks more easy to grab. I eat takeout way less, barely ever now.
Tonight at the gym I was looking at my side profile and compared it a picture I took prior to even joining the gym- the difference I saw made me feel so freaking amazing. It’s nothing major, but my upper stomach doesn’t hangover my waistband and my face is way less puffy. My legs are more toned. I’ve also noticed that I have more energy in the day, I sleep so much better and my asthma has gotten a bit better as well.
I’m enjoying all the things about the gym and bettering myself, I’m excited for summer and I’m excited to continue to see more progress. It takes time and dedication but oh man its worth it. :))
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