Hi, this is my first post here. I've always been a lurker, but never had anything to say or ask, except for now.
So... I'm trying to lose weight again, and I'm doing well, but I'm also accepting the fact that I'm an emotional eater (never thought that would be my case) and that I'm probably addicted to food?
Let me explain.
Depression hit me very hard this year and I've been on my lowest low until mid january. I decided to change, control my calories and start exercising. I don't have any problems with that whatsoever. The thing is, I noticed that I get very anxious about my family eating the foods I love when I decide I don't want to eat them at that very moment/stop eating because I'm full/eating less of it. I've started to recognize when I'm actually hungry and it surprised me to realize that I ate a lot out of impulse. I ate because I feared that my family would eat all of it and wouldn't leave anything for me. It recently happened, actually: mom made a birthday cake for me, I had 3 slices and my parents ate the rest in the span of two days. All of it. It made me genuinely upset because it was like a present and I couldn't enjoy it as I would've liked. These feelings are very common for me, I'm struggling with it right now while I'm in bed and my parents have dinner in the other room.
I don't know how to cope with this. I'm trying to tell myself that I can have anything that I want and it's not the last time I'd eat these foods, but it's not working and I'm not sure why. Their gluttony is affecting me but I don't want to speak to them about it because I don't want to ruin it for them either, nor I want to tell them what to do.
Is someone struggling with these emotions? How did you stop having this thoughts? They're kinda intrusive. I'm very ashamed of it.
P. S: Sorry if my english sounds broken, I'm not a native speaker.
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