TW: body dysmorphia, disordered eating
For a very long time, I struggled with excessive restrictions in conjunction with body dysmorphia. It started when I was little, being an early bloomer with curves in a culture where most people are petite and slim, and soon grew out of control as I became a young adult. There was a time where I saw myself as overweight even though I was a US size 2/4 and ate less than 800 calories a day. I despised looking in the mirror, and couldn't stop seeing where there were lumps and bumps where there wasn't.
It wasn't until recently that a friend pointed out to me that I am less critical of myself even though I know I have gained a lot of more weight (US size 6/8, still relatively slim, just more filled out). I felt like someone had temporarily lifted the veil on my reflection and I saw myself for who I actually looked like. That, for the first time in a long time, I actually didn't mind the way I looked. It was really nice to feel good when looking at my own reflection, even if it was just for a moment.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/lghfct/celebrating_small_wins_seeing_my_body_for_what_it/
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