19M, 240 pounds. Highest ever.
This is a journey for myself and me alone.
And what better time to begin than the day meant for love? Valentines Day 2021.
However, I have some pretty bad stretchmarks that are VERY obvious. This is the result of anti-depressants changing my brain's relationship to food. I was actually losing weight during the spring and summer of last year until I upped my Lexapro (Escitalopram) prescription. Since then, I've put on roughly 10 pounds per month until started to level off as a result of introducing Wellbutrin into the mixture. I've stayed a constant 240 pounds, but now I need help.
I've downloaded Cronometer and I have decided to attempt a low-carb diet since it seems to me that carbs are the most dangerous thing to my weight.
No matter the time of day, I get this irresistible craving for pasta, unhealthy food, and whatever else until my brain can't take it anymore and gives in. And then I feel absolutely terrible after I break it.
Obviously, that stops today. No more breaking. Food is the main source of this weight. I drink essentially water/tea/coffee most days of my life. And not sweet tea, its peppermint tea and green tea in the mornings.
However, beginning my journey I want to be held accountable. That means every single time I have an up or a down, I want to share it with you guys. I want you guys to help me have my back. The discipline will come in due time, but for now I think it's helpful to have a group of strangers behind my back.
I've also started going to the gym. I'm aiming to go 3 times a week, that seems doable enough for me. I'm starting to lift weights, and I used to love running so I'm doing that too (I also somehow can still run a 8 minute mile... at my weight... which is kinda impressive lol)!
However, something else is scaring me the closer and closer I get to finally making the push to lose weight. I have these horrible stretchmarks all over my body because of my rapid weight gain. Not only are they on my hips, but they're on my stomach, thighs, arms, under my arms, and even around my nipples, and they make me extremely uncomfortable. Will these go away, or at least fade?
Could potentially be NSFW, it's just me shirtless, but I took pictures to see what I looked like at the beginning of this journey: https://imgur.com/a/We4GQgK
I don't want to have permanent effects from the bad choices I made in the fall.
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