Sorry if the format is weird or whatever, I'm mainly a lurker on reddit.
I've never felt so ashamed and embarrassed of myself in my entire life, even though the events I'm about to share didn't really happen in front of anyone. This morning my thigh started hurting (which it already did before from what I suspect is Meralgia paresthetica but I've never had it diagnosed) but this one was persistent throughout the entire morning up until the afternoon. It didn't help that something I used to always do (which involves a lot of crouching and resting my weight on my thighs) took much longer than usual which made the pain a bit worse. I felt myself overeating during lunch but I didn't stop myself because one, I didn't want to waste the food on my plate and two, I still wanted to keep eating. A bout of cough later in the afternoon made me feel queasy. I thought I would be able to hold it in but before I could even reach the toilet, I threw up all over myself. Cleaned up the bathroom quickly and hopped in the shower to clean myself up as well. Cue vomit part 2. I felt so disgusting and frustrated at the moment and started crying in the shower as I cleaned everything up again. Continued crying while finishing my shower. I feel so awful and to think that around this time last year I was celebrating because I had just lost a couple of pounds from a bit of exercise and having a better diet. The pandemic along with a whole host of family problems had fucked with my diet and my exercise. Class is starting soon and I'm afraid I'll have less time to fix myself up again. I don't know what to do anymore at this point. I'm afraid for my health, both physical and mental.
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