I'm so accident prone and it's so frustrating. I'll get into the kick of exercising and then I'll do something like dislocate a shoulder. My weight has been so up and down these past three years with a nearly fatal overdose, friend dying, my pet dying, getting off of drugs, transitioning and starting HRT, relapsing once, an abusive relationship, and being fired for almost no reason. Also gaining 100lb on injectable abilify didn't help.
But I want something manageable. In the midst technical sense of the word.
I can do force of will. The problem is often that I go too far with it: I'll eat a crash diet until my body is malnourished. I'm surprised I'm as healthy as I am considering all of this: my blood work and ECG are impeccable. My problem is knowing how to listen to my body while still training it to be the way I want it to.
I also need to stop replacing calories with sugar. It saves time for programming but ends up costing me in fat debt.
I'm sick of going up and down and up and down. It ends as soon as I can figure this shit out. But by fuck I'm trying.
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