I feel like I'm going to die if I keep on eating like this. I keep on spending money on food. I keep on using food for comfort. I keep on stopping myself from doing things due to my weight. I feel like I don't deserve love because I'm fat. I'm scared of showing people my hideous, naked body. I'm so afraid of getting intimate because I don't want people to look at me and see through me. I have no confidence to go to job interviews because I'm fat. I don't want to leave the house because I'm fat. I don't want people to see me like this but the more I hide myself, the more I turn to food. I'm wasting all the money that I saved up for future plans on food. I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to stop depending on food. I want to stop only getting dopamine from food. I'm the heaviest I've ever been but what scares me the most is that very fact does not scare me from eating more food.
I feel like I will die soon if I keep on living like this. My family has a history of diabetes. All I do is eat and stay in bed. My treadmill is broken. I went out to the shops the other day and felt dizzy just walking. My life is going nowhere and I'm just getting fatter. This weight gain is not FINE. I'm not going to lose it in the FUTURE. This is my wake-up call. I will die one day but I don't want to die like this.
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