Started counting calories again a week or two ago; bought a scale, stepped on and discovered I was about ten pounds lighter than the last time I had, many months ago. I felt inspired.
Got the gumption & self-motivation to do a walk/jog session yesterday and I forgot just how good those endorphins feel. I only jogged maybe 8 minutes out of 30, but it’s a LOT for me. hips and knees hurt on the regular (a weird nerve thing + weight + big hips + out of shape) and I have asthma that kicks up sometimes, so cardio is hard for me to even try.
I’ve been having a really hard time with self-acceptance lately, and I’m grateful that I did spend the time to get out and do “real exercise” again. The thing that rang through my head as I was showering afterwards was this: Your body is capable of more than you give it credit for, always has been, and always will be.
Today my hips and knees ache a bit but I went out into the world to grocery shop and brought home more produce than I otherwise would. My eating habits have gotten better over the course of the last month because I moved into a place with a kitchen that actually has space and I’m remembering the freedom that being able to enjoy cooking gives me. I’ve made pulled pork, stuffed peppers, a fruit tart, curry, and all kinds of things in the last few weeks alone. Now I know that I’ll USE the produce, I crave it, and I’m slowly working more into my life. I look at the way I used to eat and I knew I was unhappy; but I also know that space and a dishwasher and produce are all luxuries. I moved a month ago and now am worlds away from fast-food-every-day, and I can’t wait to see how these long-term habits I’m cultivating make my head and body more bearable. It’s worth a little more rent and maybe a little more worry over money.
For me, CICO matters a lot to losing, but so does the actual improvement of the feeling of living in my body. I don’t want to use sugar & carb heavy eating as a crutch for the rest of my life; I don’t want to have the physical legacy of being born into a lower class family, even if I stay in the lower class; I want to feel at home, aware, like I care for and about this meat sack, and like I CAN keep caring about it.
Thanks for reading if you did; I love this community, you inspire me every single day, and I’m grateful for you. Keep on keepin’ on! 💪🏼
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