I’m usually not one to put myself online like this, but a friend convinced me to do so if it might help others. A few years ago I was 312 pounds. Not sure if it was my heaviest but it was the heaviest I ever caught on a scale. I wasn’t in the best mindset then about myself. My weight was something I constantly thought about. If I was going out anywhere, I’d be sure to find the clothing that best hid how big I was. When I was out, I’d be conscious of people looking towards me and wondering if it was because of my weight. It took a lot for me to be in a headspace where I could socialize with people because I was afraid my size would immediately throw a wrench in the works. I missed out on things or gave excuses for why I couldn’t go somewhere or do something with friends as I thought my weight would get in the way. (Dreaded walk of shame from a roller coaster you couldn’t quite fit on, skipping in door skydiving after immediately looking up the weight limit, etc.
Personal/life things just compounded over the years since high school and I just never had the drive to make a change, until a health scare that wasn’t weight related, but it was drilled into me by the doctor that I would need to change.
Fast forward to now, after finding an eating/workout routine that not only works, but I also enjoy. I’ve lost 104 pounds so far, with more to go, but I’ve already gained the benefits I was hoping for. Health wise, of course, I’m feeling amazing and looking forward to improving even more. But mentally, the change is enormous. I realized today after going out to run a few errands, go for a walk, etc. that the entire day May have been the first time (that I’ve realized) where my size/weight was never on my mind at all. I just reached into the closet and grabbed some clothes and put them on, no thought. I went out to the store and didn’t try to hide my weight by blocking myself with a basket at the right angles. I dont avoid people in the aisles. Made small talk with the cashier without a second thought. I just... lived life. I’ve been doing this type of thing for a while now I believe, but just realized it today. There’s no longer a nagging in the back of my mind that has me anxiety ridden with thoughts of how my weight will affect any given situation I’m in.
I’m able to just be. And I hope everyone here will also be able to get to that point. It’s both a physical and mental battle, and once both of those are won, their benefits together make things a million times better.
Progress so far: https://imgur.com/a/RlUEfoF
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/gdr2ub/literal_and_mental_weight_off_my_shoulders/
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