One Year and Four Months
Mom, do you think losing 40lbs is a realistic goal? I was 18, freshly dumped and scared at the truth of my weight.
I had always been big, but hey, thats just how I was (born 10lbs! My mom would tell people) I was sturdy people would say. Fit fat, I boxed and pretended to play soccer. I even ran a 5k.
These were all the things I thought of when I looked in the mirror or down at myself in the shower. I always sucked in my tummy and thought, it doesnt look that bad, I just have to make sure not to let it slip. Nevermind I wore oversized hoodies and basketball shorts almost religiously.
The truth, behind closed doors id grip the flab and wish I could cut it off and heal it flat.
Today, with a slightly rocky relationship with food (and having eaten 2 cookies todsy, FML lol), I stepped off the scale this morning 148.7 lbs (my goal weight at around 147, i hit it regularly but have put on muscle recently).
Im nineteen, 5”9 and weigh 148 lbs. Maintaining for almost half a year now. Down from 248lbs. And yes im young and its not as long a journey as many of you but here are my take aways.
Disclaimer: not everything I did was healthy, the first four months O cut intake to id estimate now as 1300-1500 cals per day.
I started going to the gym, not really knowing what I was doing. But I went every. Day. Did squats leg raises push ups and made myself run around the track as close to a mile as possible.
I joined volleyball twice a week for anywhere from 2-4 hours. And every slip up I doubled down with the food regimen.
Take aways: parents can hinder your weight-loss by never teaching you habits, my mom always just said eat whatever feel into your body, calories aren’t important. I thought calories were stupid and barely understood them up until last year! Consistency is key, religiously was the only way I was able to achieve these things. Slip ups happened, im pretty sure I stalled for a whole month but I got back into my head and back into the gym.
Tricks now: I weigh out my food (eating around 1750-1900 but I run most days and play lacrosse so I may start eating more) and I still go overboard, I binged more often in recent months than before but I again snapped out of it. YOU HAVE THE WILL POWER. And the results leave you speechless. It isnt conquering your body, its your mind.
THE AFTERMATH: my relationship with food was severely fucked. And I still struggle with it, but its much better. I sometimes do fasting days to recent. But give yourself a weekly calorie budget and stick closely to it, this allows slip ups with a positive attitude. I ate 30% on tuesday but I can rearrange the next few days.
Working out was the only way it was possible for me. I grew to enjoy it, right now I do less so, but I go more often than not and thats key.
Looking heavily at food, choosing high protein and lower cals. high volume feels great (and man you can eat a lot of chicken). And smoothies for meal replacements. These are key things in successful days for me.
My body image is still a struggle and the fear of sleeping up is a constant. I am incredibly harsh on myself, but I know its out of love. And I do know I can never return to how I was because my habits are so much better. I cant even come close to the same level of over eating as I once could.
This hasn’t been my only post, but I’m not trying to do it for karma. I wanted to spread my journey and appreciation for this sub, and I currently felt like eating and decided to reflect instead.
And finally the photos:
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/e5h415/people_of_all_ages_struggle_and_this_was_my/
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