I started cooking for myself this week so that I could be more in control of the amount of calories that I was consuming. Went well for the most part. There were days when I really wanted to just go out and get one of the calorie rich breakfasts from fast food restaurants that I habitually got, but I was able to resist the urge. I found that having a container with two cups of blueberry can definitely help to curb my need to munch while working at my desk in the morning.
I initially resolved to completely cut out fast food. I was very afraid that I would go back to habitually getting fast food and letting all the food I purchased from the grocery store last week go to waste. Come Friday, however, I did ultimately choose to get some fast food and also got fast food on Friday evening and Saturday evening before going into my weekend job. Along with my choice to get fast food, however, I also made a choice to limit the amount of food I purchased. So instead of a large combo with a large fry and soft drink, I got just two small sandwiches or 4 piece chicken nuggets and had some of my slightly sweetened Kool Aid from home. It satiated my desire for fast food, but also didn't break my calorie bank.
It feels very good to know that I do have much more agency over my food choices than I thought I did. The anxiety and worry about getting back into old habits still sits in the back of my head, but it does appear to be dissipating. There are still challenges. Without any friends or people interested in me romantically, I feel very lonely and isolated. I have identified my loneliness as a trigger for overeating. Not much I can do about that. I also still sometimes get discouraged when I go to the gym. When I look in the mirror, I see an unattractive sweaty blob lifting weights and I cannot help but have thoughts of "What's the point, after 6 months of this you'll probably still be disgusting" But I power through and I continue to go to the gym despite my negative thoughts. I know this takes time. I have the misfortune of being an impatient person by nature. I will continue to strive to take this one day at a time, but I would be lying if I said that it wasn't tough to not give into my self pity and go back to my old ways.
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