I struggle with binge eating disorder. During the last few years I have lost and regained probably 200lb in yo-yo cycles of diet and binge. Typically I average 26-28 BMI with powerlifter style physique (4-5 hard gym sessions per week), while my ultimate goal would be an athletic fit physique. After depleting diet-related options I decided to ask for a professional help.
The therapist has asked me to write down specific important reasons why I want to overcome binging and lose the weight for good. However, I can't think of any - though it is still someting I strongly desire, an obsession if you will. I plan on telling about my difficulties with this task, but also decided to ask for other point of view.
There are things I want to do when/if I lose the weight for good, like investing in high quality tailored clothes (nothing off the rack fits me well atm) or participating in a powerlifting meetup (dieting and binging cycles mess with strength progression a lot). Maybe I will start a new sport, someting more suited for slimmer individuals. Having a nice physique will also boost my self-worth and compensate for average heighth. Give something nice to show off.
While all fair and decent, these goals have proved insufficient to motivate me for losing weight. Like what is difference whether I can deadlift 450lb or 495lb, it is just a number without any significance. Health concerns are way too abstract. People do treat good looking, slim people better (scientific studies confirmed that), but I do not wish to live my life seeking approval from other people.
I would like to ask for your point of view. What could be my goal for overcoming binges and losing weight? It looks like I am unable to find any internal motivation. Perhaps there are some good external sources? While lacking the motivation, I do feel the desire and the inability to fulfill it frustrates me.
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